Insomniac, no not the developers behind Spyro....

Guess who just updated her game list on IGN? That's right, ME. Even if there's only 2 new games on there....or 3....whatever. Ugh, I can't sleep again, and I'm so very tired. My memory isn't going to get any better until I start sleeping more....but I think I am too tense to sleep. Last night my eyes opened whilst I was supposed to be in REM. I was barely conscience and my eyes were moving back and fourth like crazy. I could see and everything and I was fully aware of everything but also in a state of confusion: I was awake, and I knew where I was, I just didn't know what the heck I was doing "awake". I actually sat up and my eyes were still zipping back and fourth but I couldn't speak.....it was...strange...very very strange.

My dreams didn't stop either, probably because the REM stage is usually when most people dream, so I was awake and dreaming at the same time so I was even more confused. I hope that doesn't happen again....as it stands now though, I'm not going to sleep at all, and the fact that my mother wanted me to clean the kitchen doesn't help....since I've yet to do it. Maybe I should dedicate tomorrow as "Noni needs sleep day" and force myself to sleep till 2pm or something. My schedule changed again: now I have to be at work by 7am on a couple days...I can't remember which. My job is irritating.....I haven't said much about it.....perhaps for that very reason.

Whatever, at least I get decent wages. Maybe I will just go to bed anyway and get up early to do those stupid dishes I had nothing to do with piling up. I wash my own dishes now a days anyway so I know no one can possibly blame me for helping the kitchen look like an unholy mess, though it never seems to stop them. I swear, me moving out will not come soon enough. Ahh I guess the one interesting thing about me not getting a lot of sleep lately is that my ability to "predict" things has gotten really accurate, though I'm not even going to bother mentioning what they are because I'm too tired to remember then type them. Just take my word for it damn you. I need to sleep more though, I zone out a lot and I'm not even sure if I'm awake or what when I do it. Like a few minutes ago I zoned out looking at a phonebook and for a second, I couldn't remember if I was awake or not.

Bah....that tears it...I'm going to bed *rubs eyes* I need to buy a new memory card TOMORROW because I was playing Onimusha [4] purely for sport with no intent to save and I got pretty far and leveled up a ton of stuff. Now I have to turn it off and do it all again tomorrow. Oh well. I swear I'm just no off long enough from that stupid annoying job....I reeeeeally hate that place. *tries to think of the pay check* Stupid bi weekly paychecks........*pouts and goes to reluctantly turn off PS2*

[in other news] Taki is a man. Seriously. I mean, I love her and her gigantic boobs with constantly erect nipples as much as the next guy but I just cannot ignore that noticible bulge in her bodysuit anymore. I really wish they would've given her more of a butt, not just because she'd look better but for functionality's sake. It's a wonder she hasn't lopped one of those things off with her blade[s] I mean, the boobs are great but they seriously forgot her rear, it's totally absent. All she is, is boobs and legs. I demand they give Taki a bigger rear *rolls eyes and scoffs* gigantic boobs......it gets old after a while....

Doh....

I've been neglecting you, my poor blogger...um....blog. You see, I have 2 other blogs to write in and well....you're dead last and I sometimes forget about you...ok I usually foget about you..sorry. Anyway, you're really awsome but....umm....ya know...applesauce.

Don't worry, I totally ditched my diaryland diary so don't feel so bad. I'm going to go eat a Hello Kitty pop-tart now...even though I really want a brown sugar cinnamon one....but they went so fast. I'm going to think of stuff to write here so you don't look so depressed ok? Totally.

LuLu!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Her name is LuLu and I drew her during my lunch break at work. She actually came out alright. Score one for NmunniE.

My wall is better than your wall

BEHOLD! The WALL OF GREATNESS! I was supposed to do this months ago due to my friend's request. Now we aren't friends anymore but who cares? I still did it so in yo' face sucka. Now it's *slightly* different now due to the lack of a calendar and the fact that Kuma destroyed some of it, but it's all good. Word.

I draw...till dawn

I drew new stuff. YAY. Yup, though I am debating on whether or not I should scan and finish in PS. I really want to color via copic markers but.....well that isn't going to happen any time soon. Or maybe it is...I dunno but Photoshop is here now soooo. I'm not too shabby shading with my pencils and boy do I ever have a vast collection of those. I'm thinking about trying to ink my work with my calligraphy pen. I tried before, but that crap is difficult......with a capitol 7.

I don't know what the devil I even drew actually. It's like this weird looking elf like thing that my pencil just kinda threw up. Then the other one, well, it's just a head so far but I won't get to explaining that one just yet because it will most likely change. I was going to draw "Seppuku" but the angle of his head isn't right and it took me way too long to get it right the first time so I'm most likely going to change his fate and draw Seppuku another day.

This is actually the first time I've attempted to draw a male character. I'm actually quite pleased....with....his head. *ahem* That's all he is. He's hot though [for lack of a better segueing word]. Totally. I hate using that word to describe appearances. Well I should go to bed now....even though I feel like drawing somemore. I have an interview in the morning. I'd say wish me luck but number one I don't believe in luck, and number two...I don't even know who [if anyone] really reads this thing aside from maybe 2 people and one ov' em' already wished me luck so there ya go.

And oh crap....we got the passover thing tomorrow night too....

I'm not looking forward to this either as it is always a hassle: my mother never likes what I wear and always bugs the heck outta me. Who really cares about "looking good" anyway? We're there for Jesus! My mother and sister and already putting way too much into how they look ie, they went shopping for like 3 friggin hours. WHO DOES THAT? I mean honestly. The actual "ceremony" thing is cool. You know, Jesus dying for us all and stuff... pretty noble I'd say and I'll be paying my respects. Word.

Gangst0r

I just realized something. I haven't played Klonoa 2 with my speak0rz. I've since fixed that and holy spoot. That's gangster *low rider rolls by* Seriously, I feel like I should be bouncing up and down in a hydraulic chair. I have a new idea for a comic, *ahem* I think I may need your expertise Mister Roman. *walks off to go play more Klonoa*

MSG-G-G-G-GUnit

*shovels tons of roast pork yat into mouth* See this is how they do it on DBZ. The cartoon I now refuse to watch. If anyone needs me, I'll be having a Chinese food induced orgasm. That is all.

Robokoneko

I wish cdbaby'd hurry up and get the Robokoneko cd back in stock. This is screwing me up: I wanna buy some cds but I wanna get them all together and Robokoneko went outta stock. Crap. In other news: I have a job interview tomorrow. Man I hope I get it. Seriously, I am beginning to hate where I live more and more. I HAVE to get out of here.

They're taking my games man!!! My games that I've bonded with [and I bond with ALL my games] that I worked soooo hard to buy then beat. This REALLY sucks. It's pretty much inexcusable. NOBODY screws with my games. NO ONE. When my sister went off the deep end, my mother made my dad [he's in cahoots with er'] take all my "demonized" games away from me.

Now I let this happen without any fights even though I was really hurt because they [actually just my mother but my dad was n help going along with whatever she said] blamed me the whole time. I will never understand why people feel they have to punish me for who I am, but no matter. I waited patiently for about a year and I never asked for them back until yesterday. I asked my dad and he ratted me out to my mother and what ensued was some BS conversation about morality and being "god-like". See.... these people will make you hate organized religion. I wonder if God himself nit-picks this much?

Long story short, I'll never see them again. My dad half way tipped me off to their location a while back, but out of respect I never went to find them. I thought I'd give em' a while and let them come around on their own, but that isn't happening. So if there is a god, I sure hope I get this job so can save up and move out of this place before I kill myself. *lip quivers* Why'd they have to go after my games? They're all I've got. They keep my stress at a tolerable level and for the most part, keep me sane. I bond with each and everyone of my games and I take special care of them.

I know where they are at all times and I know when someone's been messing with them and I know when they're gone. Worse of all, I think they took my prized Onimusha game. It's not even the fact that it's gone that bugs me the most, but who gave it to me. I probably should've just kept it in my room like I did with Parappa; they never would've found it. But nooooo. *cups face* I should probably stop putting so much worth into my games. If my butthole "friends" aren't stealing them, then my parents are taking them from me.

Actually, I only have one friend now that comes over to play games with me, and I'd trust him with anything so no one'll steal my games anymore. This is really depressing. In all honesty, I could go get them right now....perhaps I should. I really don't see why I should have to suffer due to the actions of someone else, especially when I tried to prevent said actions. I never blamed anyone for any of my problems, or made them change or be uncomfortable just because I was.

I keep crap like that to myself. They should've been so willing to accommodate me wh....bah... I'm getting mad about it all over again. *sigh* Fine. I just need to put all my energy into getting away from these people. That'd be nifftacular. Though I guess my snarky parents feel justified in treating me like a harebrained juvenile because I still live with them. Oooooh that's gonna change. Hopefully by the end of the year. That's the one thing that really disgusts me about them: they love to demean you if they can and they absolutely LOVE holding things over your head. Maybe not so much my dad but my mom...good god. She really tries my paitence on a regular basis.

No matter. I still don't have many ill feelings toward her. She gets on my nerves but meh, who's mother doesn't? Right whelp, rant over I want Chinese food.

Brain*Blip

Apparently I have bad/strange taste in guys. Everytime someone asks [usually a girl] and I tell them, they look at me all funny. Pssh. The one thing that kinda ticked me off was some girl [one of my sister's friends] said Crispin Glover was "ugly". What..... no no no. What....
If that's not grounds for an "oh no you di'nt" I don't know what is. That man is a Zeus. Seriously.

That's just like when I told this guy how awesome I thought Kevin Smith was. He said he was "fat and ugly". Friggin nigga.....fat and ugly indeed, I think he is rather handsome and distinguished. He wishes he was a Kevin Smith. And then, I told my sister that I thought Djimon Hounsou was also a Zeus in his own right. Again with the ugly thing. I ask you, what the fang? Of the very miniscule list of men I think are Zeus-s-s [I think there's about 4 people in it] why the devil does everyone have to pick on them?

It be not fair I tell you. *stomps foot* Oh well, I've always been in a "league of my own", or so I've been told. I suppose I am in this sense also but I mean c'mon, NO ONE agrees with me here??? I think the next time someone asks...I'm just going to say Gonzo and run with it.

Classic

Oh lookit me go, breathing through my nose and what not. I actually forgot what I wanted to write about. Erm... I'm playing games again WHOO! My hand is all better... well for the most part and that makes me happy on a large scale. I've been doing much coding too: I got a new blog thingie and completely kicked the old template's balls through it's nose. Totally. In doing so, I picked up some XHTML. You know, HTML's retarded uncle. I don't much care for it but I suppose it doesn't hurt to learn the "trade".

I even trashed Mister Roman's sickeningly monochrome blah...I mean blog, and changed it to a biohazard/Asajj Ventress themed layout. That was fun and irritating, but mostly much fun. Totally. It looks pretty good, though for the "about me" image, he changed his content to a shorter entry thus shrinking the image so about a good oooh 18% of it is cut off. No matter, you'd never notice. It'll shrink and elongate whenever he changes his content. That sounds bad.

I must admit, I missed doing all that coding. I haven't had much of a reason to lately since I've pretty much stopped fussing over my myspace profile because CSS bores me to tears just about. I got a blog on erm... blogger.com cuz I got invited to a gaming group. Awesome in a bag. Now that I can actually play them again, I think it'll be spifftastic. I even made a game collection list on IGN [a site I haven't been to since they sold out] Man, I remember when they were still calling themselves "Imagine Games Network". I think I was 13 when I first signed up, but like a year or 2 [give or take] after that they started charging and making all the cool stuff "exclu$ive member$ only" so I left them for dead.

You know what I hate? These retarded "mini-game-esque" banners that myspace is infested with. If I didn't have coc....I mean pop-up blocker, I'd probably be saying MANY choice words right about now.
GOD HELP YOU IF ANOTHER ONE OF THESE THINGS TRIES TO OPEN UP! I DON'T CARE ABOUT YOUR STUPID FAKE SWEEPSTAKES!!!! What the devil would I want with a free ringtone anyway? I don't even have a cellphone anymore.

.....It just tried to open again. That.... TEARS IT.

This was originally going in my myspace blog, but screw it. In this one at least you get to use the ultra neat "advanced" editor thing. I really should devote more to this one anyway, after all it is new and I can't imagine it is feeling very loved. I made it look all supaflybagofchipssextasticyo then just kinda went, "eh". Well since I've given myspace the proverbial middle finger for the rest of the week, I'll just take my "meaningful" entry elsewhere. Where elsewhere = here. I feel the need to start drawing again. Almost certainly because I've got a dozen unfinished sketches that I need to scan and CG sometime. I guess I gave it a rest because of my hand. I mean, for a while there I couldn't even hold a pencil, and when I did manage to get a grip on one, I'd get writer's cramp in seconds so it wasn't as rewarding as it usually was.

I have one in particular I want to finish soon: it is of one of my characters, "Chimera". Actually.... I'd like to get in another one of Hifumi and Morgana but I have to get my head on straight first. I can't draw when I have too much on my mind...or just unpleasant things in general. I wonder if other people have a hard time drawing too? I mean, I can envision a sketch in my head, actually, I always draw in my head first before I ever put graphite to sketchpad. I see what I want before I draw it, and it usually comes out the way I want it. Just everything leading up to a finished product.

Sometimes I can't even make a basic chibi, or anything. I'll just sit there and stare at my blank paper and just....heh I dunno drool. Or make about 3 dozen reject sketches. This is why I don't think I'm very good at drawing because I lack consistency. Though I'm not sure if it's just me, I guess everyone has their "days".... and I'm pretty much the only "artist" I know so I don't really have anyone to relate to. This not withstanding, I want to finish my picture[s]. I know I have about 3 that I want to complete in Photoshop, I just only remember one of them right now. I'll have to look though my folder tonight and see if I can clear my head enough to actually sit down and sketch.

I think I may buy a new set of charcoals and invest in some really good colored pencils. God....if I could find some dual ended copic markers I'd be one happy minky. I reeeeally reeeeeally want to have a set of those. I like doing Photoshop art and all, but I really want to try a more traditional approach because I feel I'm missing out. Copics take skill, and I want to learn how to use them. Though those things are expensive as fuuuuuuuuuu.....I think they are actually worse [price wise] than Prismacolors. I mean a set of 12 is like $8O, and 72 can set you back $4OO and up.

I think I'll just start out with like one or two because I don't even know if I can learn to use them and I'm not wasting $8O on something I'm not even sure I'll get the hang of. I could always start with colored pencils. Mmmmmm.... Aquamonolith woodless colored pencils. Those things are amazing: when you sharpen them, you can soak the shavings in water and create gouache. Could you ask for a better colored pencil? Well.... I suppose you could, but then you'd just look like a jackass. They're like $23 for 12 and they'll last pretty much forever so I think I'll go for it. Although..... I must say the Progressos look pretty good too. Woodless pencils.... pure pigment.... *shudders*
These things are like the wet dreams of the art world. I must have them. You sharpen them with a piece of paper man.... PAPER. I don't think the Progresso ones turn into paint but still. And don't even get me started on paint and brushes.

Garwsh, I could talk about this sort of thing all day. Just the sight of a tube of acrylic paint...no no OIL COLORS... and and... those sextastic "membrane" palates just.....hmmm...see this is exactly why I don't even care about porn anymore. Who needs that when you have....y'know, I should just stop right now. It's bad enough people think I'm a spell castin' weirdo, I don't need them thinking that I also "take it" from art supplies. I think I may finish a sketch tonight, though it is more likely that I will play Kinetica for about an hour with the speakers turned up louder than they should be. Oh how gaming is enhanced by the great Logitech. If I ever had more love for an inanimate object before these, other than the Corvette [gawd....the CorvetteZO6]......I swear this is the closest I've come to proposing. True story. You know what I want? My own theme song.